All throughout this year something has been happening. I can't quite put my finger on it because I don't know and I'm not for sure, but I know that somethings happening.
I'm completely and totally anti-social. Never before have I ever been like this. I spend my days at home reading books or watching movies instead of going out with my friends and hanging out with them. I don't even text people anymore. Things have gotten bad and I'm not quite sure why.
Am I scared of something? But of what? Nothing that has happened lately would make me this way - so why do I do it? I push everyone away, I know this... it's my own fault. It's really a catch 22. I want everyone to be there for me yet I push everyone away. I hate irony.
What am I to do, really? Honestly? Not be anti-social - okay, great answer... now what? I have it answered, I know what I should be doing, what I need to be doing and yet I do nothing of the sort. I wish I knew.
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